This poem was written rather quickly as I was waiting for a video of Mary the Goth Theologian to download onto Youtube. Rather than get up off the bed, and get my notebook, I typed it on my Mac. There is something rather sterile about writing poetry on a computer. So, as you can read that was the theme of the poem.
This is also the ongoing pursuit of the poetic skill I should have acquired by sleeping on Cadair Idris. The only real way for me to discover whether I have poetic prowess beyond song-writing is to offer this to people who actually read my stuff. So, here it is - offered as a screen capture from my Mac.
I wasn't really furious. I was more surprised. I received a call from Drew, the pastor at the North Shore Bridge Church in Beverly, MA. He called to tell about a movie they were showing at their church last Friday night. It was 3pm and he apologized for not contacting me earlier. I wasn't sure why he apologized, until he asked me if I would like to come and say a few words before the film began at 7pm.
I wasn't sure what the film was about, but the name "Furious Love" sounded familiar to me.
Then Drew mentioned my part in the film. (Sound of the screeching needle across the vinyl record inserted here) What?! I'm in the film?
Then I remembered that about 18 months ago some guys came into to Salem filming events, and did an interview with me about stuff God is doing in Salem. I was nervous about the interview, because the things we do in Salem are definitely outside the box, and our stance to befriend and love Witches and the various Neo-Pagans living here has been misunderstood and/or demonized a few times too many. Even if it has not been demonized it has been re-communicated in typical, and often aggressive sounding warlike Evangelical/Pentecostal terminology.
I am not sure which is worse: to be demonized or defined by someone whose language offends our friends.
I went home and watched the trailer. Now I was really nervous. This was looking like a crazy, demon busting film. I was sure I was going to be typecast as an aggressive Witch Hunter. Oh boy, just what I need living in Salem, MA!
I arrived at The Bridge Church just before the movie began. Drew talked with John Harding (my good buddy in the crime of overtly and openly loving people in Salem) and I, and asked us to share for a few minutes before the film began.
John talked about the outreach which their church performs with us in Salem, and then I followed up and suggested that the title Furious Love challenged us to consider love as the weapon of our warfare, and turned our conceptions of treating people different than ourselves upside down. I was hoping the film might have that kind of theme attached to it, but I was really just grasping for straws, and was quite nervous about the way I would be cast.
Film began: Demon possessed people in Africa (I think it was Kenya) were flailing around and screaming. This set the stage of a documentary travel film, which went to the "darkest places of the world" trying to find out if God was working in these dark places.
Within two or three other visits to "dark places" the movie makers arrived in Salem, MA during October. Of course, they inaccurately identified Haunted Happenings (the month-long Halloween celebration) as a Witchcraft Festival. It really is a combination of children's events, street vendors, theatrical presentations, museums retelling history of the 1692-1693 witch trials, and witchcraft shops peddling their wares and holding events. Our church is more active than almost any other institution in town and so it can't exactly be called a Witchcraft Festival, but that's what most people seem to think it is.
Now in Salem the movie makers were trying to reach out to people by praying for them and healing their diseases. They spoke of coming into Salem looking for a fight with the devil. Oh boy, I was getting real nervous, because I knew this was the lead in to whatever interview cuts they took from me.
They showed an encounter praying for a lady with a knee problem. She did not get healed and openly said that it felt exactly the same as before the prayer. This was contrasted with another experience in another place in which a man on crutches was healed. They remarked that nothing was working, and that their approach to looking to fight the devil head on was going nowhere....
"until..."
The scene panned in to our church with me sitting on a stool in front of the old vault which graces the meeting room.
"...we met this man."
Uh-oh. My part came in. The cut they used had me sharing that it was far too frequent for people to be afraid of, and to demonize the Witches and Neo-Pagans in Salem. Once we do this we disqualify ourselves from speaking on behalf of God.
The movie then pivoted upon this interview, and they went back out into the streets of Salem, and found themselves being able to interact positively with the visitors and locals on the streets.
This was truly the first time I have felt that an interview was understood fully, and effected the kind of response we are known for. The theme of the movie moved from war to love - but love as the manner in which God fights for people.
It continued through other countries, and other events with some wonderful, and some sad stories. It was far more beautiful in its shaky, hard edged documentary style than I could have expected.
It touched me simply because I felt understood, and because it encompassed the message we live in Salem. Hundreds of people every year learn from us, and the movie captured something we have been teaching for 11 years now.
So it gets a biased two thumbs up from me. Watch it if you can.
Okay, here's the trailer that scared me, and made me wonder how I might be cast.
The readers of The Why Man who responded to the poll about processing pain were broken down into these divisions:
45% I face it and try to either overcome it or learn from it
37% I pull myself together and move forward as though it didn't exist
9% I find a way to drown it
9% I go viral and blog about it!
So, the real question is "who is the the most healthy here?" Is the 45% who face the problem, the 37% who redirect themselves in new directions, or the the 10% who are honest enough to really tell the truth and say that they drown it? Certainly our viral bloggers have got to be sick - of course, I say that because that is my most likely response.
Please click the words below "View Survey" and answer the question on processing pain and struggle. Do you do it by evasion and ignoring, or by confrontation and publication?
The following poem was written on the airplane from London to Boston last night. As you will notice from above I spelled Gibbous incorrectly, so it is corrected in type below. The out of focus section on the bottom of the page gives the date 2/26/2010 and says "On a plane "home" from Wales. Remembering a [gibeous] moon low in the sky in the early morning about a month before."
The Waning Gibbous Moon
by Phil Wyman
The waning gibbous moon slung low upon the sky
Winks, and bids the dawning day goodbye
It mocks me with its eloquence
It portends darker nights
And with the waning gibbous moon I sigh
The waning gibbous moon slides down to meet the line
Stops, where earth meets sky and dark meets light
Inerrant gibbous moon I sense
Prognosticates my life
and with the waning gibbous moon I cry
The waning gibbous moon slinks out beneath the sky
Flees, to squeeze the night time and the tide
O, soothe me omen gibbous moon
Reveal where I might fly
and with the waning gibbous moon I'll hide
Still in need of work, but basically there. This is the continued efforts of seeing if sleeping on Cadair Idris made a poet or a madman out of me.
Perhaps I am the perfect imitator, a doppleganger in every season of my life. Maybe there are aliens on this world like those who populated the planet before the coming of the V, and they have been trying to take my place since I was in Junior High School.
In 7th grade, a cute little middle school girl followed me at a distance ohing and ahing because she had a crush on Danny Bonaduce from the Partridge Family. I guess I looked a lot like Danny Partridge, freckled and curly headed, so she had a crush on me too. I never even found out her name - silly me.
In High School "Young Frankenstein" came out in the movie theaters. My wild curly hair, my thin mustache, and the fact that I looked significantly older than my 15 years made me a shoe in for Gene Wilder, and students I didn't even know would shout at me and tell me I looked like Young Frankenstein.
Shortly thereafter Peter Sellers' Pink Panther series was running through its remakes in 1975, 1976, 1978, 1982, and 1983. First I started hearing from High School mates, and then the following years at Palomar College that I looked like Inspector Clouseau. Fortunately, or maybe unfortunately I could imitate the crazy accent flawlessly, and girls at college would stop me to show their friends that I looked and sounded like Inspector Clouseau.
A few years later a Russian comedian made the big time in the US, and once again I was accused of looking like another TV personality. Standing in a room at the gym by myself one day a girl shouted from the door, "Yakov, Yakov is that you!?" At this first encounter with the name, I had to visit the bookstore and find a book with a picture of Yakov Smirnoff, famous for the "Vat a country!" line. Finding a picture of him standing in the middle of the street in New York City I coould easily have been fooled into thinking it was me.
Finally we come to today. I have now become a suit! Beginning about 15 years ago while I was still living in Oceanside, CA George Zimmer, owner of the Men's Wearhouse began to do his own commercials for his company. I was an instant George Zimmer doppleganger. At the time I ran an open mic at Joe's Garage, a coffeehouse on the corner El Camino Real and Oceanside Blvd. A group of young guys walked in one day and asked if I was the guy from the Men's Wearhouse. I said, in George Zimmer stunted and stiff fashion (he has since taken acting lessons and is pretty relaxed and cool today) "I guarantee it." For a couple months these kids would bring their friends to the coffeehouse to meet the guy from the Men's Wearhouse running the open mic. I never told them otherwise, I simply replied "I guarantee it." whenever they asked if it was true.
So during the current Facebook Doppleganger session, this is my confession - I am the ultimate doppleganger. If I am not then I have been doppleganged throughout my whole life. These are just the major dopplegang characters. There are a few more minor characters whose names I can never remember.
Of course, these guys all have two things in common: Wild hair and big noses. I guess wild haired, big nosed guys all look alike.
This could really lead to a personality disorder, or at the least a mild complex of insignificance.
Not much to put down in the text of the post here, because the question is the post. During difficult seasons (I am experiencing my own right now) can you tell the difference between those who understand your struggle, and those who act as thought they understand? Does it make a difference in terms of how much it helps you make it through the tough times? Does a friend offering silence work better than a friend bringing many words when life is at it lowest?
Fortunately I have not had too much of this. My friends have been pretty amazing, and The Gathering is truly like family.
After changing my Twitter background, I decided it was time to change my header here as well. So there it is above. I decided to use the same sepia toned photo from Avebury on one side and add the steps going up to Castell Dolwyddelan in North Wales.
I had to reverse the photo of the steps going up to the Castle to make this work, but I guess that might fit the problem of being a serial deconstructionist anyway. Once again - photos by Mizumi Graham.
I changed the background of my twitter page yesterday. I am actually somewhat happy with it, despite the fact that I did all by my lonesome. Sometimes I can make things like this work, and sometimes it's a bomb. This one works, needs a little adjustment, but it definitely is not a bomb.
The pic is a section of a photo taken by Mizumi Graham at Avebury about 5 years ago. I sepia toned the image in Photoshop and added the text on the left hand side.
I have been this on occasion, but more often have dealt with people who are the angry decision maker. This insightful study by Jennifer S. Lerner and Larissa Z. Tiedens should make you think about the way you make decisions, and about how you perceive those who make angry decisions. For now that is all I will say, because I want you to read it for yourself. The paper is a free pdf download. So that should make you happy.Here
It sure is a good thing pastors and Christian leaders are never angry decision makers. Oh - whoops, I guess we all fall prey to that weakness, don't we?
Yesterday the new Irish blasphemy law went into effect. The Irish Atheist responded immediately with blasphemy on their website - 25 "blasphemous quotes" from people as diverse as Jesus Christ Himself, and George Carlin. Among the 25 quotes are a series of obscene comments about God, and the person of Jesus. (tto read the full article go here)
Many articles have been written about surviving Christmas alone. Most of these articles deal with finding a way to break free from being alone. Service in homeless shelter, finding a family or group of friends to join for the holidays, or throwing your own party are common suggestions. Yet, there are times when you are truly alone, and survival tactics for this wilderness of true aloneness are necessary for your emotional and mental health. This season of anticipated joy is filled with many people who find themselves far from home, have few to no friends, or are in the midst of a tragedy such as a death of a loved one or a divorce.
So, I thought I would write a poem for a humor poetry contest. Instead I ended up with this poem, which teaches rhyming styles by modeling them and mentioning them throughout the verses. Now the side notes on what styles are referred to in each stanza are not meant to be in the body of the poem. They are just there for this blog post. This is certainly one of the silliest things I have ever written.
I am No Poet (a dirge of commonness)
I am no poet (1) broken rhyme and I know it I am broken I always blow it
my strange addiction (2) double rhyme sad affliction is oft doubled within my diction
I have tried to hide (3) assonant Rhyme my moral bind but lessons lurk within ass'nant lines
repeating within (4) inside repetition my mortal sin it lunges large and it screams again
I have tried to end (5) simple, masculine this single trend be masculine! but I always bend
now trying to quit (6) consonant rhyme but never quite cons'nant struggle not ever quiet
I can not fake it (7) imperfect rhyme please or placate imperfectly out falls my mistake
If given an or-ange (8) scarce rhyme squeezed like syringe scarce my options still all will cah-ringe
this evil duress (9) light/unstressed lightly unstressed would fall away If I weren't careless
with my dreams too high (10) wrenched rhyme it cuts to my soul so wrenched it pains me but few cry
This, my rich idol (11) Rich Rhyme - homonyms once thought idyll now I find that it leaves me idle
repeating my words (12) identical repetition my type of words identical repetitious words
like macaroni (13) Macaronic Rhyme/multilingual plain bolonga it will be known gwladwr ydw'i
so I am destined (The Final Mourning) to be questioned and ridiculed whenever mentioned
wrong time to be born now I must mourn hanging my head live up to my scorn
You see, in this time metered sublime free verse is loved but poets can't rhyme
Over the course of the last couple years, I have experienced a high degree of betrayal from the hands of church leaders who have lied and/or gone along with the lies. Coming out on the other side has been both difficult, and liberating.
I am not sure that all levels of betrayal have that same redemptive dynamic. I have experienced a new level of betrayal from someone who is supposed to be a friend recently, and wonder, "Is it possible to come through these things, and find a silver lining in the dark cloud."
Beyond this life - I suppose. In this life, I am still convinced as I have been for quite some time, that not all things make sense. Betrayal does not make sense, and I am sure that is part of the dynamic of redemption - not to make sense out of the senseless, but to save us from it.
After pastoring in Witch City (Salem, MA for 19 years, I am now on the road nearly full time. Writing, speaking, and helping people share the Gospel in festival settings. e-mail me here
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